Pregnancy is taking a toll on me badly..

[bythesea88]

Does anyone else feel really.. alone and sorry for themselves?
I’m almost 12 weeks but mentally and physically I’ve had an awful time. All day nausea where I’ve barely been able to get out of bed (not helped by the fact I’ve had a vomit phobia) I’ve moved back in with my parents as he couldn’t handle how I was.. they’re taking care of my 4 year old. I feel like I’m not living my life but I feel too sick and anxious to go anywhere or do anything. I booked a termination for last Monday but cancelled it and the thoughts are starting to cross my mind that I made the wrong choice.
I feel far lonelier and more anxious now than I did at any point during lockdown last year.

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. I’m 12 weeks too and have definitely felt very alone and sorry for myself, especially when my morning sickness was at its peak. Despite being blessed with a lot of support, I still felt that no one cared that I felt that ill. The fact that doctors etc don’t care as long as you’re barely hydrated felt so cruel. But medication has really helped me and I wonder if you’ve spoken to your doctor about it? Cyclizine is the starter drug and it has massively reduced my nausea and sickness. It took about 3 days and then I felt much more like myself, which helped my mindset a lot too. I really recommend asking about it if you haven’t already x

I’m so sorry you’re having a tough time. The vomit phobia can really push you into darkness. Have you asked the docs for anything? I got something that helped breakdown bile in my stomach which really helped after taking a few days to get going.

Are you with the father of the baby?

Do you mean your oh can’t handle how you are? Is he normally this unsupportive? Why is he not taking care of your current child?

I totally sympathise - I'm 27 weeks now but have jyperemesis and had a really dreadful first 20 weeks of being unable to sit up let alone get out of bed. Couldn't watch TV or look at my phone because the screens made me sick. Never have I felt so alone!! But it will pass - it might not seem like it now, but the weeks do roll by eventually and soon you'll be the other side. Let your parents look after you and your 4 year old and you concentrate on getting the rest you need.