I don't know what's wrong with me.
I'm 16 weeks and engaged to my partner.
He has a daughter from a previous relationship who is 5 and I have a daughter too who is 9.
Lately I'm just getting pangs of jealousy and paranoia about his ex.
I feel like I'm constantly having to compete with her- this is honestly all my own feelings. He never makes me feel this way and I've never really had any issues with her.
I just find myself constantly feeling like I need to compete and worrying that I'm not sailing through this pregnancy like she did.
I have stretch marks and I know she didn't get any and I'm exhausted and a bit grumpy so now I'm just thinking I bet he wishes he hadn't ended up with me and that he wishes he'd reconciled and made their relationship work.
Right now I honestly feel like ending the relationship and just doing this alone so I don't need to feel these jealous feelings anymore. I do suffer from anxiety which I take medication for but have had to stop due to pregnancy.
I just feel like crap and like I just don't know what to do to feel better as she is never going away.
I don't know where this has all come from - just feeling awful and like I just want him to go away so I can enjoy this pregnancy and not worry about him or what he's thinking/feeling/doing