severe anxiety

[vixey]

I had a mc/chemical in December after trying for a baby for over 2 years. I found out I'm pregnant a week ago today and I've never been more anxious about anything in my life.
I'm approximately 5 weeks pregnant and have been have cramps (mainly on my left side of my lower abdomen, but sometimes all over my abdomen) and back ache. I keep getting told its normal which it probably is but im so scared.
I went to hospital at the start of the week because of the cramps and had hcg tests done. they have risen, I had a scan on Thursday and that showed a gestational sac and a yolk sac but they said its too early to see anything else so I have another scan on Friday, im so scared about it. I already have severe anxiety and the dr I saw the other night said it was my anxiety causing these cramps and basically told me I was wasting everyone's time. I dont have a midwife yet coz they only ring to book the appointment twice in a week and there's no way of ringing them back. i just feel completely terrified, to the point I'm having panic attacks all the time and I'm scared to even move. please tell me I'm not going crazy xxx

Aww @vixey I’m so sorry you are feeling that way.
I also suffer with anxiety and being pregnant definitely heightened my anxiety severely, it was a really difficult time so I really do sympathise you are feeling this way.

In hindsight it would have helped me to think that actually it’s out of your control, if you’re a responsible person (I mean not doing reckless things) you absolutely cannot be the cause of anything bad happening so please don’t be afraid to move. It actually helped me watching videos of pregnant woman dancing (like tiktok videos etc) as they were so relaxed and moving more than I ever did!

It is a really anxiety inducing time for anyone waiting for that first scan, never mind if you already suffer from anxiety. Can you find a good tv series or a good book to distract you until Friday? Go for lots of walks and reconnect with nature abit? As just sitting worrying until then will really make you feel rubbish. I know it’s ALOT easier said than done. Sending hugs!

Sorry you are feeling like this. I suffer anxiety and was just like this in first trimester with cramps and backache. I was so tuned in on every ache and pain that I felt like it constantly hurt somewhere in my abdomen. It was all I could think about! I had 2 early scans and everything was fine (Im now 21 weeks). Multiple doctors and midwifes said cramping is nothing to worry about unless it gets really severe.
Try not to google and just trust the doctors and remember what you are feeling is very common with normal healthy pregnancies

Sorry you're feeling this way.
I completely understand and it is completely normal for you to feel this way.
My first was a miscarriage at 10 weeks and even now, 3 babies after that, I'm still just as anxious and have panic attacks too.

The cramps are completely normal.
You also probably won't be contacted by a midwife (if you've referred yourself) until around 9 weeks

thanks so much everyone, this is so reassuring. I'm not going crazy im just pregnant 😂