Hi all.. I'm in desperate need of some advice. I'm 31 years old and have been with my partner for 10 years. He works at sea and has done since we met. We've had tricky times in the past but we have always pulled through. He already has a daughter (12 years old) who lives in another country. He hasn't seen her as much has he has wanted/should have so their relationship is tricky especially as she is approaching teenage years and her Dad isn't around.. I've just found out that I'm pregnant, have been on the pill since I was 15 however have had some issues with heartburn the last few months with some occasions me being sick. This happened more frequently so I got in touch with my GP who knew me and that I was on the pill. He suggested me do a test incase my pill had not been absorbed, as this has been happening for a while and I've been fine I was so shocked to see a positive sign. 3 tests later and no period its safe to say I'm pregnant.
My partner has outright said that he does not want to have this baby. According to him its not the right time (when is??) And that if I keep this baby he wants nothing to do with me or it! I mean 10 years we have been together. 10 years!! I've said that I would be expecting to most of it on my own as I wouldn't stop him working away plus I know he needs to spend time with his daughter as she is at such a difficult age in her life. He is still adamant that he doesn't want it and can't actually say when he will want kids (this is news to me!!)
My dilemma is do I abort this baby for him although I think after what he has said we likely won't survive this.. or do I keep the baby and raise it on my own (I have an amazing family network and friends). I know i could do it but what is in my mind is that I'm knowingly going to allow this child to grow up without a Father.. is that horribly selfish of me to do that to a child??
PLEASE HELP!!