6 weeks and so unsure

[Lizzwizz85]

Hi all

Background is I've been ttc for 5 years and had my first ivf frozen embryo transfer last year and had a miscarriage from that in December

I have been continuing to track my cycles and discovered that I'm pregnant about a week and a half ago. Making me around 6 weeks 2 days today

I had a tiny bleed on Sunday, no cramps, just pink and brown with about 2 drops of red and it stopped after about 5 hours and had nothing since

This morning I did a pregnancy test and the line was barely there, my heart sunk, I dug out a clear blue digital and sure enough the weeks had dropped from 2-3 weeks to 1-2, so obviously was incredibly sad/devastated and know how it goes from here - this was all at about 4.45am

A couple of hours later, just because im driving myself absolutely insane, I tested with the last line test in the packet and it showed a line much darker and quicker than the earlier mornings test

NHS aren't going to test/do bloods or scan me today, they will just tell me to wait.

I don't know what I want or need, I know I'm just waiting for the inevitable, but I so desperately don't want it to be that :(

So sorry this is happening to you. Sounds like it's been rough. Only time will tell as you know. I didn't go through IVF in the end but it did take us 3 yrs TTC the first time with no reason found for infertility. After our first PG I've found my cycles have improved, I get more EWCM and fell pregnant 3 times in less than a year (this one now 35 weeks) - it was like my body needed a reset or something. I'm just saying this to let you know that there is still hope whatever happens. Obviously still hoping for the best for you!