Feeling extremely down early pregnancy

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I feel so guilty for this. I'm around 4+5 and I just feel so down. I'm crying most days and I don't know what about. I'm being awful to my partner. He works away during the week and if he calls I'm rude on the phone and via text and I'm just being generally unpleasant. I then get upset that I've been so mean to him and cry about that also. I'm feeling worried that something will go wrong also. This pregnancy was planned, and I really do want this baby and I'm very worried incase things go wrong as it's such early days. It doesn't feel real yet. I just feel like shit and very lonely. Is this abnormal behaviour? Any advice on how I can snap out of this? I really do apologise if this comes across ungrateful, as I mentioned this baby is very much wanted.

Hi!
I was exactly the same, just crying all the time and just feeling down like you said!
I’m 9+4 now and all I can say is that it comes and goes with me, one day I’m on cloud 9 and everything is perfect and the next day I’m crying and just feeling down (I’m the same as you baby is more than wanted) but it’s just apart of the hormones I guess, your body has just has this sudden intake of hormones it’s not used too so I think it’s normal to feel a bit all over the place at the moment!
Don’t be so hard on yourself and just feel what you’re feeling, I found actually speaking to my partner helped a lot and just telling him about all the worries I have during pregnancy :)

I was the same. Really took me and my dh by surprise. I was just soo sad and just miserable. Then felt soo guilty for feeling the way I did. I'm 27 weeks now and really looking forward to meeting my daughter.

I was exactly the same and still remember it 12 years later. Some of my friends didn’t take it seriously as I was pregnant so it was all obviously hormones

I surprised myself at the doctor by saying I felt like I had nothing to look forward to. I couldn’t change how I felt.

It slowly wore off and I don’t remember feeling like it the second time. I was probably too tired. It will pass

Oh, and I should say that I was terrified that it would indicate I was in for PND. This didn’t happen, thankfully, so try not to worry about the unknown - it is just where your body is at this moment in time.

It's really re-assuring to hear I'm not the only one. I think I'll feel better when I'm a bit further on and hopefully had good news following scans. It really has took me by surprise aswell and I totally get what you mean about worrying about this being an indicator or PND but I'm so pleased to hear that wasn't actually the case @TheBitchOfTheVicar

I felt like this, and in fact having come off anti depressants to try and conceive I went back on them. I'm still not sure if our was the anti depressants or the change in hormones, or seeing the scan at 12 weeks, but I felt much better in the second and third trimesters. Was also worried about pnd but haven't experienced that fortunately. I hope you feel better soon x

You're all so kind thank you. I'm counting down the days until I can get a scan x

I feel exactly the same. Although my pregnancy wasn’t at all planned. I have a beautiful 9 yo daughter, a good job and a nice life and now I’m about to throw another baby into the mix. I’m petrified! Some days I’m ok, I slightly look forward to it, then other days I’m considering whether I can go through with it or not. I’m praying as time goes on, it will get easier. Your not alone though hun x