Hello
I use persona as contraception and have done so for a few years between children. It has done well so far but lately there has been many teething nights and so when I am woken at night I need to pee. Persona relies on urine taken in the morning to give you red/green days. Normally you use the longest pee but because of the restless nights recently I think the sampled i used were probably not good enough and therefore gave me the wrong readings. I kind of know my danger days anyway but I think we did have sex during them this month even though he did not ejaculate inside (hate that word) ... i know, i know this does not stop you falling pregnant. But it has worked for most of our relationship.
Anyway if I am pregnant then I am just so worried that this could be the end of me. I love my children and I love babies but I found my last baby such hard work and did not like the way I was and how I dealt with it. I feel like I complained my way through her first year. My first baby I cherished every moment I am worried that I would be totally useless this time and find it all too much.
I know my partner would say, "you complain now about how hard it is, how will you cope?"
If I am then I guess deep inside I would be smiling but this is very selfish of us to get into this situation.
Oh God! I dont know what to think. Its weird because I am only two days overdue so thats not out of the ordinary but I kind of feel different and a bit protective of myself. I do have a few cramps but I had that with my last pregnancy along with the usual pmt.
I am waffling now, just needed to get this out because I could not talk about this to anyone.