Just found out I'm pregnant.. I'm terrified this time..

[myguardianangel]

I've just taken a test which said I'm 1-2 weeks pregnant. We've been trying for a while so I thought I would be over the moon but I'm just filled with anxiety I've barely been able to eat all day and I'm just sat shaking.
I have a severe phobia of vomiting and I'm so scared I was just lucky last time and I'll get HG or something this time.
I'm worried my 4 year old will feel replaced and that I haven't been a good mother to him.
I'm scared about the pandemic, having this one on my own.
I'm scared about telling my mum and dad as mine and my partners relationship can be a bit Rocky.
I lost my cousin last year suddenly who was like a sister to me. It making me miss her so so much as she was there for me through my first pregnancy and she was pregnant only a few months after me.
Just feel like I need a hand hold really!

@myguardianangel

I've just taken a test which said I'm 1-2 weeks pregnant. We've been trying for a while so I thought I would be over the moon but I'm just filled with anxiety I've barely been able to eat all day and I'm just sat shaking. I have a severe phobia of vomiting and I'm so scared I was just lucky last time and I'll get HG or something this time. I'm worried my 4 year old will feel replaced and that I haven't been a good mother to him. I'm scared about the pandemic, having this one on my own. I'm scared about telling my mum and dad as mine and my partners relationship can be a bit Rocky. I lost my cousin last year suddenly who was like a sister to me. It making me miss her so so much as she was there for me through my first pregnancy and she was pregnant only a few months after me. Just feel like I need a hand hold really!

This is what I got tonight

Well , I suppose in any life change there is some grief for what you had before the change? And you were through the baby stage and not long out and now starting again.. and unless you have amazing family support, babies need a lot of attention.. so I’d say be kind to yourself and remember what a good mom you are and believe in yourself.. and sure you might not be nauseous at all, maybe get the wrist band etc .. I believe in you, so does your guardian angel!

Couldn't read and run. I actually am pretty sure I'm pregnant but too soon to test and yep I feel the same, anxious and sad for my daughter. I'm an only child and I feel like I benefited hugely from that and have such a good relationship with my parents. I hear all sorts of horror stories about siblings and feel very selfish wanting another. On top of that there's the pandemic and we need to move as our flat is too small. And yet... I try and look at the future. Think that all this is transiant and soon enough that new baby will be as wonderful as your 4 year old :)

@AbiBrown

Couldn't read and run. I actually am pretty sure I'm pregnant but too soon to test and yep I feel the same, anxious and sad for my daughter. I'm an only child and I feel like I benefited hugely from that and have such a good relationship with my parents. I hear all sorts of horror stories about siblings and feel very selfish wanting another. On top of that there's the pandemic and we need to move as our flat is too small. And yet... I try and look at the future. Think that all this is transiant and soon enough that new baby will be as wonderful as your 4 year old :)

I'm an only child too! I'm so close to my parents also as a result, but I'm not sure if that's also to do with being a girl? I wanted this. I really want this. And now I'm not sure if I do. How awful is that to even say. But I'm just not excited at all.

How are you doing?