I'm 6+5 weeks pregnant following a MC in July
Baby was conceived naturally (had been trying for 4 years and had to resort for ivf to conceive DS) so this was a major shock to the system. I'd just got my head around it when I went for a scan they said I was measuring 4 weeks when I should've been 7.
Over a week I told myself that maybe the dates were wrong, maybe I was really only 4 weeks but then I started to miscarry and it was the most horrific thing I've ever experienced.
I was so happy to have conceived again, but I can't stop thinking that something will go wrong. I feel sick with anxiety and every time I wipe I have the fear of seeing blood. Every symptom I'm clinging on to hope that it's all okay, I'm putting off having a private scan because I'm petrified it will happen again.
This pregnancy feels like my successful first pregnancy, so that's a positive and nothing bad has actually happened I'm just so paranoid.
Does it ever get easier? I'm a student nurse and starting placement tomorrow. I hoped that would help take my mind off it but I'm actually overwhelmed with fear that something is going to go wrong.
I feel like I'm never going to be able to enjoy this