DH and I both have children from a previous marriage. We decided to try for a family together. It took over a year of trying and two early (6 weeks) mc’s but we finally had our baby boy in January and we’re over the moon.
In June I found out I was pg by accident. It was a complete fluke but we were so happy. We’d always said we wanted two DC together because of the big age gap in our other children. It would be nice for our DS to grow up with a sibling close in age.
When I was 8+ weeks pg I had a scan and it showed I’d had a mmc. Because of Covid I was on my own for the scan and couldn’t be offered a D&C so had to miscarry naturally. This happened 3 weeks later in August and was incredibly traumatic. I suffered a haemorrhage and was taken to hospital alone. This massively affected my mental health.
Just before Christmas I found out I was pg again. We were very happy but cautious. Yesterday I started having pain and bleeding and I know that yet again we’ve lost this baby too.
Is it time to accept that I can’t have any more children? I’m heartbroken but 4 mc’s in two years has taken its toll. I’d love another baby so much but is that even likely now? I’m 38 and DH is 44 so I know it’s probably age related. I feel so sad right now and don’t know what to do for the best 😞