Scaring myself silly

[Lwrencox]

Hi there I always read these threads and have thought to post one today to get some advice from people who really know what I’m going through I’m on my 4th pregnancy I have no kids I have MMC with all early one was latest 8-9 weeks, I went for a scan 21st of December which showed me at 8weeks +3 days and there was a heartbeat, I feel the scan only reassured me for the day as I am constantly checking myself to see if I’m bleeding, always googling (I know I shouldn’t but my doctors are so useless unless I am bleeding they won’t talk to me) I’m supposed to have my 12 week scan mid January but I couldn’t wait that long I’ve booked another private scan (this is my third one) to check everything is ok I’m absolutely terrified and going out of my mind I know the earlier scans won’t change it if something does happen but I can’t help but worry & want to know any advice or promising stories I’m so stresssed

Firstly, relax! You are putting extra stress on yourself! Being worried and scared is natural and I think all of us women feel it! I had a previous ectopic so we had a private early scan (NHS weren't offering due to covid). At 5w 6d we seen a heartbeat - after much research chances of a MC after seeing a heartbeat drop. But yes I was still scared and considered booking extra scans etc. But as you say they only reassure you for that day only.

I kept telling myself, that even if something was wrong or had happened... paying the extra money wouldn't stop the outcome as there is nothing anyone can do at such an early stage ... this thought process seemed to ground me and let me feel like 'going with the glow..'

Try to enjoy the moment, but also at your booking appointment with your MW, be open about your anxieties so they can offer support.