Feeling more & more down in pregnancy

[Ksi91]

I'm currently 33 weeks pregnant & lately I've been feeling down more & more each day
I wouldn't say depressed - I've suffered this in the past in my teen years & im no where near feeling like I did then , I also do not suffer any suicidal thoughts or feelings.

I'm always exhausted , always in pain ( suffer PGP ) which escalates at night causing me broken sleep , I no longer feel excited to be having a baby ( how awful is that 😭 )
I just keep thinking - I can't wait for this to be over

On top of this I've been having issues at work
HR manager & my line manager have messed up my maternity , I'm now having to go later than planned or pay the company £236 as I've been paid too many holidays hours ( old contract ) so I'd be working a week unpaid
HR at head office are denying receiving my matb1 form even though they have posted it back to me so it's now a rush to get my paperwork back through the system.

On top of that , I'm having issues with one of my supervisors. Who's now told me I'm not allowed to have any pop on my person ( but his gf has cans of red bull on her 🤔 )
We've had a personnel clash & words were spoken , more so by me
His dad is also my line manager & he's had a go at me for taking " 5 mins too long on my break "
Total conflict of interest there 🙄

So between feeling like shit 100% of the time then getting aggro from work
I generally feel like staying in bed until my waters go

I'm very tempted to go to the docs & ask for a sick note but I feel like this is admitting defeat - I'm a very stubborn girl !

I don't even know what I want from this post. Probably just a rant

I haven't spoke to my OH yet. I don't want to worry him

@Ksi91
Aww that's a really crap unfair situation. Some people are completely clueless about how awful pregnancy can be. I'd definitely discuss with your doctor. Can you spread the 236 over a few months so that it's not too big a hit? X

@Ksi91 no shame in wanting the last few weeks of pregnancy to be over, even without the pain and stress you’re in.
It’s good that you’re able to put it into words here, do you feel like you could talk to your midwife?

@Ksi91 I'm sorry this is happening. Speak to your doctor. If your work was supportive perhaps you could push through everything else but verbalising to your doctor as a nother professional might help with some clarity and that clarity might be sick leave xxx

@cat709 I asked if they payment could be spread out over maternity & was told no. It'd be one lump sum out of my wage in February
My pay day is actually the day I'm due

@BirdsInTheAttic I could probably speak to my MW but I hate "taking up peoples time"
I'm normally one to just rant & rave then get over it
I'm planning on speaking to my sister tomorrow as a listening ear

@Ksi91 just sounds an awful uncaring company.
I'm with you on wishing pregnancy was over - nothing wrong with that :) xx

@Ksi91 just sounds an awful uncaring company.
I'm with you on wishing pregnancy was over - nothing wrong with that :) xx

@ThirdTimeLuckyIHope I was all excitement at the start , it's just died off the last few weeks
Like , I find myself almost getting pissy with people when they ask how long I have left
Answer - too bloody long 😂

@cat709 I actually used to be a manager in the company so I know the ins & outs of this stuff
I stepped down from manager in a restructure down to supervisor then stepped down again when I fell pregnant
I work for one of the biggest supermarkets in the uk
The company prides itself on "people skills"
It's almost laughable 😂