Am I a Bad Mum Already?

[daisynova]

Hi everyone,

I am now 17 weeks pregnant and I am hating every minute of being pregnant. I have suffered with severe morning sickness, high blood pressure and now I am suffering with migraines. To top it all off I have type 1 diabetes that is difficult to manage at the best of time.

People (mainly women with more than one child) just seem to laugh at me when I say that I am not enjoying it and they get annoyed with me when I explain that I am hating being pregnant.

The pregnancy was planned - just the illnesses were not. I really wish I was one of these women who have a hassle free pregnancy but it seems that I am destined to have a really horrible time.

Am I being a bad Mum for feeling like this? It's really getting me down now.

I am 11 weeks pregnant almost and I feel like death, I am sick all the time, I have gained half a stone already!! (This is after loosing 3 stone at weight watchers prior to my pregnancy) My plan was to eat healthily throughout the pregnancy, but you tell my body, hormones and cravings that, they just took over, I really mean it. I am exhausted all the time, my house is a mess I am short tempred with my husband, my 3 kids - youngest 10 months. I am showing like I am 6 months already. My husband is getting cross with me, he thinks I should be so happy at being pregnant....
Yes, this was planned and I love all my kids and husband dearly, but I am a different person at the moment, emotionally unstable, short tempered always hungry, and unable to complete simple tasks like cleaning. I feel a wreck!! I look awful, I have had 3 consecutive colds, I have had a chest infection, a huge boil on my nose that left me so run down, it was untrue.
I am someone who takes great pride in my appearance and looks after my house but right now, thats all out the window.
I am not keeping my commitments very well, missing appointments because I feel so sick.Honestly, this for me, is a rough ride, I did feel like ending the pregnancy all because of this, but as a christian I would not do that, but the thought was there.
However, I console myself with the fact that this a season in my life where in effect I am giving up my body/self as a sacrifice for my baby. I know it will be worth it. And yes, I am blessed, but boy is this time tough!!

Delacey - aww sounds really bad honey and I sympathise with you. The tidying of the house has never been my strong point but I haven't folded up any clothes for a long time! I just can't find the energy or motivation. Hoping it will come along soon.

Muffin - poor you, your MIL should have been a bit more sympathetic. I'd ended up eithe rin tears or yelling at her! That was really mean what she said.