Just that really, scan booked at the hospital for later today.
I went for a private reassurance scan last night, at 7 weeks. It was not reassuring, unfortunately.
It took her absolutely ages to to find anything and she kept asking if my dates might be wrong. I’d started to give up hope after quite a while and she’d said she was going to refer to the hospital for a transvaginal scan.
Then, she found a heartbeat
and measuring 6 weeks 2 days.
But I could still tell something wasn’t right, by her face. She was still asking about my dates and if I’d had previous c-sections.
This would be my third pregnancy and I’ve early scans before. My DD’s are from my first marriage, so this is would have been my current DH’s first baby. He hasn’t been for a scan before and didn't seem to think anything was wrong, he was just really excited to see the heartbeat.
So, end of the story is that the sonographer phoned and arranged a scan at the hospital anyway, as she was concerned that it might have implanted in the scar tissue. The letter she has given me says that it is possibly in the csection scar cavity. (Which would explain why she couldn’t find it I suppose!)
Obviously I googled, I couldn’t help myself
If it has implanted there then it is a very rare and potential fatal type of ectopic pregnancy, so won’t be allowed to continue.
I don’t know why I am writing really. I don’t want to bring DH down and he is still happy (and hasn’t been on Google!) but I didn’t sleep last night. I felt so lucky to be pregnant, after having a chemical pregnancy a few months ago - and being 40.
The day is going really slowly and I am dreading it. Plus I have to go alone as it is DD’s birthday party, so DH is having to man the fort for that one and I’m not sure he’d be allowed anyway, due to COVID. I just don’t see how it can be good news, after watching her looking last night and the general feeling I got.