Totally miserable

[Changeythenamey]

This pregnancy was so wanted. It’s our first and we’re in our mid thirties.

I’m 20 weeks and utterly miserable. I had severe HG for the first 3 months but I’m less sick now. I’m exhausted, I can’t sleep, I can barely walk due to pelvis pain, my stomach hurts and I can’t even feel my baby due to anterior placenta. I feel totally detached from the idea of motherhood and having a baby.

I’m just utterly miserable and I don’t know how I am going to manage another 20 weeks.

So sorry to hear you're struggling, I think anyone would be miserable with all of those symptoms. The dark days and lockdown probably aren't helping either. I think 20 weeks is a really hard time because you have lots of the unpleasantness of pregnancy, but not the joy of feeling kicks yet. For me, starting to feel regular kicks made everything more bearable. I don't want to say the time will pass quickly, because it might not. And everyone says 'it'll be worth it', but that's not particularly helpful when you're feeling crap! But you will get through this. It won't be forever.