Not much point to this because hopefully I’m just letting my anxiety get the better of me but wanted to type it all out.
Got my 12 week scan tomorrow and I’m terrified that something is going to be wrong. Saw midwife/consultant yesterday for routine appointment (re mental health support) and that appointment went fine.
Have had and still have most common symptoms, nausea - only vomited once though, ridiculous fatigue, really sore boobs, heartburn/acid reflux etc and have been doing okay.
Had a day or so of mild-moderate cramping at 6 weeks with a tiny bit of light bleeding when wiping followed by a couple of occasions of very light spotting of brown/very pale pink blood after sex/heavy exercise between weeks 6-9 but have been fine since and midwife wasn’t concerned and didn’t want to do any tests so I guess that’s a good thing. I’ve been worrying for weeks but tried to keep a lid on it because logically if they’re not worried I shouldn’t be.
I’m just terrified that there will be something wrong on the scan and because I have to go alone that makes it so much scarier. They’ve said I can video call my husband if I want to though but it’s not the same.
I’m 25 and my mum passed away last year after suddenly being diagnosed with a brain tumour and we lost her after 4 months. Life has been pretty rubbish so I guess I’m majorly doubtful that I can get through this without a disaster.
I’ll stop waffling now, think I just need someone to virtually hold my hand haha