I don't really know what I want from this thread, I just need it out of my head.
DH and I have been trying for 17 months for baby number 2. Finally last month I got my BFP.
Over the weekend I had some light pink bleeding when wiping and lower back pain. GP referred me to EPAU yesterday for a scan. I should have been 8 weeks and 3 days, but it's measuring 6 weeks, only the start of a fetal pole and no heartbeat.
I have to go back next Monday for a re-scan to be certain, but I'm certain of my dates. I've looked at the dates again and it is impossible for me to be 6 weeks pregnant.
This year has been shit. I've not been able to see my family since January and March and there's no chance I will be able to for at least the rest of this year, in all likelihood it will be March/April at the earliest. I'm early 30s and all I want right now is to be able to hug my Mum. I have nothing left to give, I'm completely drained now. I really thought nothing more could go wrong. I'm desperately trying to hold it together for my 4 year old but I don't know how much longer I can keep going.