Does anyone else feel really shit about themselves right now?

[HangingBanana]

Did or does anyone else just feel utterly shit about themselves when pregnant?

I am so so happy to be having our baby, I really am. But I feel repulsed by myself at the moment. I feel so fat and ugly it makes me want to cry sad

I look at pictures of myself before pregnancy and I just think will I ever look like that again? Or of my friends who aren't pregnant and feel sort of (I don't know what the word is) ashamed that I look so huge.

I know logically that I'm being stupid. I am huge because I'm third trimester pregnant!! I know this. But I still can't help but feel really down about it and sort of embarrassed about the way I look right now.

I have never felt less attractive or 'nice' in my life.

I think part of it is because I lost a really good amount of weight before getting pregnant and was the slimmest I'd ever been and was feeling really good about myself and my body.

I don't even want DH to look at me, I don't want to have sex, not through not wanting it but because I feel so unsexy and just like I'd be horrible to look at.

Yes!! I don't remember this last time either! I think cause this is my second pregnancy I loved the whole being pregnant thing the first time round cause it was all new and exciting as uncomfortable as I was at times, but this time I had to give up wearing 'normal' clothes about 6/8 weeks ago (currently 33 weeks with twins) and all I can wear is trackie bottoms pjs or the one pair of Mat leggings I have. I refused to buy anymore mat jeans as I was very quickly in size 16 and I refused to buy size 18 jeans when normally I am 10/12, I'm dreading losing the weight after cause I know it will be hard (I never lost all of the weight from first pregnancy but I didn't think I looked too bad) I got a varicose vein last pregnancy which this time has just got bigger and longer and is ugly as hell I don't want to wear shorts ever again unless I'm able to have it removed post pregnancy as I know it's going to affect my mental health with how vile it is. Sounds really silly but that's how it makes me feel already. Me and my OH don't sleep in the same bed anymore, it's a nightmare cause I am uncomfortable and so end up keeping him awake moving so much (the spare bed is much more comfy though which is nice for me though).
I get what you mean as it's so 'natural' and our bodies are doing something incredible but sometimes our feelings overpower that part of it! X