So 2 weeks ago I find out I am pregnant. I am currently 7+2. I have not told my gp or boss.
I had an early miscarriage in January of this year at 4+4 which was just like a heavy period.... I must say it did really effect me too badly.
I had a mmc in April 2019 and was 1 week off my 12 week scan. I had been having brown discharge for 2 weeks beforehand and kept getting told it was normal. It was my first time pregnant so knew no different. I eventually got in to have a scan like I said 1 week before my 12 week scan to be told it had stopped growing at 6 weeks.
What followed was very traumatic.
Fast forward to this ‘new pregnancy’ and I started having some brown discharge yesterday evening. Just when I wipe and I still have it this morning. No pain, still feeling nauseas a bit ( which I imagine must be a good sign). However, my mmc from the first time is very much playing on my mind. I have called the epu and they will see me Sunday morning for a scan based on my history. I am fine with this.
My reaction to this pregnancy has been the complete opposite to what I would have expected. I feel nothing and have have not done since finding out. I didn’t even do a test until I was 5+5. I didn’t tell my husband until I was 6 +4.
I have felt angry, annoyed. Not worried I may lose it but just detached.
Is any of this normal?
I haven’t prepared myself for the worst for Sunday morning because I guess in my mind I’m not pregnant.
I’m feeling very confused by all of this.