10w blues

[LaMadrilena]

I know I'm probably being paranoid.

I'm 10w with my first, after a v early miscarriage last time round (5w). So far, so normal - nausea, sore boobs, bit tired. I've had 2 scans at 6 and 8 weeks due to pains from a UTI but all ok. I've lost about 2kg over the last few weeks from the nausea and loss of appetite, but nothing I couldn't afford to lose.

Despite everything, I'm convinced that at my 12w scan they're going to tell me it's all over. That I haven't gained weight because the baby's not growing properly. Then I'll have to tell everyone when they've been so happy for me.

I've had to come off antidepressants due to the pregnancy so I know it's partly because I can't control the negative thoughts like I could a few weeks ago.

Don't know what I'm expecting people to say, really - just getting it off my chest!

Please don't despair - I hear that if you've had a scan at 8 weeks and there was a heartbeat then chance of a miscarriage reduced to 2%.

I'd like to tell you that you stop worrying, but we all have little wobbles - just make sure you have a good support system for your wobbles.

Can you book a private scan with someone before the 12 week scan so you're not alone?

For what it's worth, I'm 22 weeks and I've not really gained any weight - I've had friends that have lost weight during the first trimester due to nausea and sickness. Best of luck, I hope you get some relief at your 12 week scan and can begin to enjoy your pregnancy