Positive test, 2nd child and very scared! Help

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Hi I'm 8 or 9dpo and I have had 4 faint positive tests. This was unplanned, and I took the Ella one morning after pill but obviously it didn't work. I already have a almost 2 year old DD and she is a real handful. I'm seriously panicking how I would cope. I still breastfeed and I co sleep DD is pretty reliant on me to get her to sleep I can't leave the room without her screaming for me.

I've been Googling other netmums post To try and make myself feel better but after a difficult evening getting my daughter to bed I now find myself searching abortions!

I'm so so scared and I already suffer from bad anxiety I feel like one minute I'm excited then the next a big wave comes over me and I feel sick with worry.

Hi OP, congratulations, whatever you decide to do I hope you get support. I'm currently 16 weeks pregnant and have a 2.5 year old son who is a handful and also co slept with us until about 2 months ago. The good news is you've got 8/9 months to get sorted and try and get your DD into a bit more of a routine with bedtime and sleeping in her own bed, now that you've got this goal to work towards it will help you stay focused which I know is hard especially during early pregnancy when you don't feel great:( xx

Google is like out minds... It can be our worse enemy. Have you friends in similar position or age difference om kids. 9 months is a long time, you're eldest will be 3.5 years. Off in their own school adventure. Maybe a medical practitioner can help you or your partner?