I really hope this post is not taken the wrong way. I just want to give hope to those who are in a position i was a few years back...
TRIGGER WARNING FOR TERMINATION & MISCARRIAGE
2014 i made the horrible decision to terminate a pregnancy. I was on a medication that wouldve harmed the baby and I fell pregnant. At the time i felt it was the right decision..i went through with it ....
2018 me and my partner start trying for a baby....after months of trying were FINALLY pregnant... but not long after I miscarry suddenly..
It was the darkest time of my life. I felt like this was karma for the termination. Im an athiest and yet i felt like it was god punishing me.
I even felt like i needed to go to church and confess, to somehow protect any future pregnancies!
Months pass, and still no pregnancy. Im severely overweight, ive previously miscarried, i have irregular periods, i felt like THERE WAS NO CHANCE OF HAVING A BABY.
It was like i had my chance and i blew it.... i finally lose hope. But then on CHRISTMAS DAY..I do a test because my periods a day late and there it was.... a plus!!!!! I was pregnant..
10 months later - im sitting here gazing into my sons beautiful blue eyes and thinking - how on earth?
I was seriously SERIOUSLY overweight and my periods were all over the place...every doctor told me my odds were low due to my weight. And my history made me think i was incompatible with being a mother.
And yet... here he is.
If anyone is having a crap time getting pregnant, please believe IT WILL HAPPEN. If it can happen for me, it will happen for you.
Thats my story.
Hope it helps someone out there.