Hi all
This is the first time I have posted something on here but over the last week I have read so many posts on mumsnet. I wanted to tell my story and I hope that it helps others who are going through something similar.
In the days leading up to my positive pregnancy test I just felt different; I have never been pregnant before so I had nothing to compare it to. I started getting spotting (very light, brown discharge) on 20th September (I had ovulated on 14th September), constipation and some shooting pains in my back passage, plus some weird twinges in my uterus area. I read a lot of the forums on here and it sounded like implantation bleeding and symptoms. On Thursday 24th I got the positive test - we were so happy!
Later on that day in in the few days following I started getting a stretching feeling in my uterus (and still spotting every day). The twinges were enough to make me feel as if I couldn’t say, go for a run or do a yoga class. I assumed this was implantation, but called the GP on Friday just to check. She said it did sound like implantation but I should keep an eye on it.
On Sunday I woke up with a lot of cramps, almost like I needed to poo but there was nothing there, and something just didn’t feel right. I went to A&E and they examined me and said my cervix was still closed so they weren’t worried whatsoever about a miscarriage. But that it wasn’t normal that I was spotting. I then had a blood test to take hcg levels and needed to go back 48 hours later for another test.
I had the test on Tuesday and the doctor told me that unfortunately the hcg level had dropped significantly in 48 hours so it was very likely that I had either miscarried or I would shortly miscarry, and that I should let nature run its course and test again in another week.
The rest of this week I have just felt in a state of limbo. Super upset that it was all over in less than a week; wondering whether I should have tested so early (if not maybe I would have been none the wiser?), and just waiting for a bleed just to give me closure. I haven’t been able to get my head round the fact that I haven’t bled right away. It just didn’t feel real. Nothing happened - I still had sore breasts all week, I took a test on Thursday and it still said positive, which just added to the sadness as I felt as if I couldn’t draw a line under it.
It’s now Sunday and the cramps and bleeding have arrived. I feel so relieved that now I finally have closure, and it just wasn’t meant to be. It feels like it has been such a whirlwind of emotions in such a short period of time. I wanted to share my story in case there are any other ladies out there who also feel confused that they were told they have miscarried, but nothing has happened right away. Your body needs time, and it doesn’t always pan out straight away. I hope this helps others who may be feeling in a state of limbo. Lots of love x