26+3 feeling low

[Aahh99]

It's really hit me last few days, I've been battling anxiety, comes and goes, had a few panic attacks this pregnancy when I haven't had any for years.

I don't think it's just pregnancy related, there's a lot going on im worrying about/finding too much.
Baby measuring small already, having to move house just after baby is born, Oh family being a nightmare as usual.

Most days I feel a frenzy inside. Haven't managed to get dressed today.
Oh just taken DS2 to the park and I've got back into bed and can't stop crying.
I don't want to face work tomorrow but I've already had a fair bit of time off.
Found myself watching them today thinking, they'd be OK without me. :(
Obviously I've no intention, but the thoughts are there.
Just need to pull myself together.

You don't just need to pull yourself together, things sound tough! It's ok that you are struggling! I'm going through something very similar - pregnant, need to move house, 2 kids currently driving me insane. You're not alone.

Have you spoken to the doctor? Or the midwife? Any chance of getting a bit of time just for yourself?

I don't want to admit it tbh, MIL already told OH ill Defo need antidepressants and won't cope with 2 children (when I've been fine the last few years, definitely the most settled I've been since me and OH moved in together 4 years ago.)
I don't want to prove her right.

And as for work, I don't want to admit mental health struggles to work either.
They haven't been the best work place, I've only been in the unit since February and haven't exactly settled in very well.

You don't need to tell work about your struggles right now. You don't need to tell anyone you don't want to! Have a chat to a sympathetic doctor or midwife. Anti depressants are absolutely nothing to be ashamed of, or scared of. They just help correct a chemical imbalance, same as numerous other medicines.

How are you doing today@Aahh99 ?

Much better thank you, up and went to work.so that's distracted me. Luckily. Toddler was shattered from my mums house today, so he went straight to bed at 7pm,so I've had a good chunk of time to myself this evening.. Thank you for checking in.

Bless you, your MIL doesnt need to know if you are prescribed medication. Don't tell her and tell your partner how you feel? Is Your OH supportive? And how old is your little one.
It's best to be honest with your midwife and get the help and support you need now than letting it spiral. I've done this in the past and ended up very isolated.
As for work try and keep your chin up and remember not long before your maternity leave It is hard having two little ones but if you can get in a good routine at home and keeping on top of the housework etc (I only say this as I get behind when I have been down and it's made me feel 1000x worse)
I had 2.5 years between mine and I was alone with them it was hard of course some days and some days great! You can and you will do it. Be kind to yourself

Thanks @dixiedo.
I'm going to see how I feel at my 28 week appointment but I'll probably mention it.
My toddler was 2 last week. He's a darling really. Lucky to have such an easy going boy.
I don't want to end up on medication again, Im hoping just a bit of tlc and self care will do me the world of good. OH very supportive and my mum also, thankfully.