Consistent spotting and bleeding is getting me down

[Ned2021]

Hi

Im 7+2 weeks pregnant with my 2nd Child.
After 4 rounds of fertility treatment, this baby is desperately needed.

I have a history of recurrent miscarriage although as 2 were CM i believe these were down to bad luck more than anything else (all tests came back clear)

I bled alot in my sons pregnancy so i know that bleeding doesnt necessarily mean bad news.

I started bleeding in this pregnancy at 5+5, red blood, lots of cramping. Ive since had 2 scans and both show good progression and baby has a heartbeat.
But 12 days on, im still bleeding. Ive had 2 further bleeds, once at 6 weeks and one at 6+6 and everything in between is brown and spotting.

Its just getting me down. The constant worrying, the constant knicker watch
It was my birthday yesterday and i just wanted it over with in case something bad happened.
Today, has been a good day, barely any spotting until an hour ago and along with the cramping, im just worried. (The cramping for me is normal).

I dont want to do anything round the house in case it causes a further bleed, my moods are so up and down.

Not sure the point of the post to be honest.
Im not moaning, given the choice of this or not being pregnant at all, obviously id choose this.
But its just so hard at the moment to stay positive.

I had this with both my pregnancies for the first 12 weeks, and I felt like I wished every single day away. So so difficult. I don't really have any advice, just offering some solidarity!

Thank you.

I shouldnt be having to wear pads and yet i dont trust my body if i dont.

I have over 4 weeks left until i hit my 12th week and it feels like an eternity

I know, but at least the pads will give you a gauge of how much blood there is and if you aren't filling a pad some comfort.

It feels like a bloody eternity! I feel like I left every scan reassured and then 5 mins later I'd be worrying again! If you can, maybe you could squeeze in a reassurance scan in two weeks - give you something to count down towards.

Thanks

Luckily, apart from the initial bleed, my bleeding doesnt go on a pad, only when i wipe. But i dare not take them away, not yet.

Luckily i get reassurance scans by the recurrent miscarriage clinic.
I paid for a private scan last friday as the previous scan id had at my fertility clinic were really cold and called the foetal pole 'tissue'.
Luckily, the private scan showed a lovely heartbeat and measured right on track, felt over the moon. Only 2 days later, im worrying again as you experienced too

I have a scan this friday so not too long to wait then one every 2 weeks

This was me! Spotting at 7+5 and had early scan, all was well and we saw heartbeat. Then I only felt reassured for so long as I had more spotting. EPU got me back in and scanned me - all was good again, good growth and Heartbeat 💓. I then had private scan at 10 weeks which was just amazing. Even after 3 great scans I was still freaking out for my 12 weeks yesterday!! But it couldn't have gone better!!! I stopped spotting around 10 weeks. It's hard to accept it can just be "normal" but I can 😊best of luck x

Oh @Ned2021 I hear you, I bled every day until nearly 17 weeks and it was a nightmare. I’m 33 weeks now and still check the tissue when I wipe! Mine was caused by a haematoma, is there any chance that’s what is causing yours?

@hellymum21 congratulations on getting to 12 weeks. Now to enjoy. You are right, it is hard to accept. I just want it to stop.

@HenrysHome ive had 2 scans since the bleeding and nobody can see where its coming from. Im just waiting for the 'big bleed' to come, whether it does or not...
Im a total head fuck.

@Ned2021 that’s so frustrating that no one can see the cause! If it makes you feel better, I had 5 or 6 massive ‘floods’ where I would literally have to sit on the toilet for about 20 minutes until it passed. It was really scary as it was bright red blood too. Once it bled out around 17 weeks there’s been no further problems

Well im at the recurrent miscarriage clinic on friday so hopefully they will have a good look too. My guess is they wont as its currently just brown old blood. Unless there is something lurking behind that.