I was diagnosed with severe anxiety, OCD and depression eight years ago, and was finally able to get it under control with the maximum daily dose of sertraline (200mg).
When I got pregnant with my first baby, I weaned off the medication as I was aware that it posed a risk to the foetus. I tried other remedies for my problems such as yoga, camomile tea, meditation, hypnosis, CBT... you name it, I tried it. Nothing seemed to work for me except medication.
My mental health rapidly deteriorated to the point where I ended up in A&E and was put under the care of a pre-natal psychiatrist. I was put back on sertraline at 150mg from about week 25. My baby was subsequently born at 38 weeks, healthy and beautiful. I returned to a daily dose of 200mg sertraline and have had no problems since.
I am now eight weeks pregnant with my second baby. Although I feel reassured that sertraline did not affect my first baby, I’m aware that the first trimester is the riskiest time and last time I managed to get through all of the first trimester without sertraline.
I’ve tried to wean off it again but already my mental heart is beginning to decline and I can feel it coming over me again like a black cloud. I feel like I have no choice but to keep up my 200mg dose as without it I am finding it difficult to do simple tasks and even to look after my daughter properly. I hate that I am clearly so dependent on medication but I have tried everything else I can think of.
I guess I am just looking for some advice or reassurance, as I will never forgive myself if my child is born with a heart defect or other problem because of my sertraline use. It feels like I am being very selfish and putting my own needs above those of my unborn child.