Pretty sure I’m paying for bad news.

[Catchafallingstar15]

So just a sob story really and seeking for some hope.

Had a MMC in April. I also had a difficult two months being pregnant because of a hemmorage causing bleeding. Very long and drawn out and traumatic MMC with failed procedures and several repeat scans to determine what was actually going on.

Found out I was expecting again in July and was so excited as I’ve heard so many positive stories of women going on to have a happy healthy pregnancy after a loss.

At 6 weeks I had a bleed and was told at the EPU the sac is only measuring 5 weeks and I have a large SCH (subchorionic hematoma) and I’ll need to return in two weeks to see if there is progress. But I am again high risk for a miscarriage. Large sigh.

More bleeding and spotting has followed (not loads) but the same as last time that lead to my miscarriage. I CANNOT sleep. I’m just so stressed it’s horrible. One minute I’m positive and the next I’m the gloomiest person I know. Every announcement is another stab in the heart. I hate myself for saying that. Sorry.

So. I’ve just paid an extortionate amount for them to HOPEFULLY tell me either way. I need to start the grieving process before I return to work.

I’ve got loads of events coming up the end of august. Including starting a new role at work and I just need to know.

Every inch of me is praying for a miracle and the little baby is holding on. But deep down I think I know.

Any amazing stories out there or even a hand hold at this point. Thanks so much everyone. Wishing you all the best x

Sending so much love and a huge handhold - I had a MMC at the end of March and they are just horrendous and make any subsequent pregnancies so anxiety filled. Is it a scan you have booked? When for? I’ll be thinking of you x

That sounds so difficult 😔 I think it's completely natural for you to feel so stressed considering your history. I had a large SCH too - which we only found out about because I was literally trickling bright red blood into the toilet when I went for a wee. I think I was about 7 weeks. Went for a private scan and was told I had miscarried. Went to an NHS the following week to confirm and they found a heartbeat - I'm now 33 weeks pregnant with that baby who is completely healthy. I basically just took it really easy once I was diagnosed with the SCH - mine was right next to the gestational sac so they said it could go either way depending on if the bleed spread and met the sac. It took about 3 weeks for mine to go away and I had more bleeding in the meantime but the majority of it reabsorbed. You'll find that they're actually really common but you don't hear about them until it's happening to you!

I really hope that everything goes well for you x

@SkyBlue20 thank you so much. It’s so nerve wracking and completely takes over everything. Probably why I don’t feel optimistic. A small part of me has some hope. Booked a private scan for tomorrow at 3pm x

@otterbaby your type of bleeding sounds similar to mine. I’m so glad it all worked out for you. Must have been such a shock to return to find your little baby’s heartbeat! I love a happy ending. I’m clinging to mine. X

Oh bless you. This limbo is the worst.

First pregnancy, I went for a scan with heavy bleeding at about 6.5 weeks. Saw two sacs, measuring a little over 5 weeks, which could not be possible
with the dates I had sex, and a large SCH.

Scan ten days later showed one baby, still measuring ten days behind, I was still bleeding on and off.

He’s almost 9 and just gone to bed and the light of my life.

@AnneBullen thanks so much for your positive story.

The waiting and not knowing is so hard. I had a MMC followed by 2 miscarriages before my first due date had even arrived. Then a years gap where I just stopped falling pregnant. Then another pregnancy with a lot of bleeds and trips to the EPAC and scans and etc. It was mentally and physically hell. I had morning sickness from start to end, with the inevitable off few days at a time where it vanished and then I felt even worse than when I was feeling sick, I had SPD, I was then diagnosed between Christmas and New year with gestational diabetes, but nobody was available to see me until the 9th of January, so no advice or treatment about it. Then on the 8th of January I went into premature labour at 34 weeks exactly. I ended up delivering just after midnight and, due to complications, they had to call in an obstetrician who was the one I was due to see later that day for the GD. She is here and a very healthy 2.5 year old now. I spent the entire pregnancy expecting the worst and in the end we got our wee miracle.

Handhold it really is awful, I did the same paid for a private scan before my epu one because I just needed to know so I could move on. Had mmc at 14 weeks and a mc at 7 weeks i now have a 15month old who I had a massive bleed attached to sac from 6-17 weeks and poured with blood and clots from 6 weeks, I downed a bottle of wine in the shower and grieved my 3rd loss went to a scan the next day and was told baby was fine this happened until 17 weeks and then at 20 week scan had completely disappeared thank goodness. Do not give up hope no matter what happens. Praying you get good news tomorrow xx

Sending positive thoughts your way

Handhold

I bled from start to finish in my last pregnancy. Sometimes heavily but everything was fine with the baby it was a very temperamental cervical ectropian. Currently 10 weeks with the second and the bleeding has started again. I’ve had early scans and all is . Some
people just bleed when pregnant.

Wow @Brenna24 you are so strong. I’m so happy you got your miracle.

Thanks to all who have taken the time to handhold and share their positive outcomes. I’m holding on to all the hope that this one is a little fighter. I’ll do my best to give a brave update tomorrow when I’m back and processed the news, either way x

Wishing for good news for you OP x I've also been through the stress of a SCH, it's really awful.

I’ll keep everything crossed for you x

I had a terrible SCH with DD. The amount of blood was incredible. I even passed a clot bigger than my hand. I had about 4 big bleeds during my pregnancy. I was put on Progesterone which I had to inject daily and was on bed rest.

My beautiful DD is now 8 years old.

Good luck today, OP xx

Good luck today OP. Really rooting for you.

Good luck for today x

Good luck today x

Wishing you the best of luck for today.

Really don't be concerned over the dates. U have no idea when u exactly ovulated..... also I had an ivf pregnancy so dates were precise and at my 7 week scan baby measured just over 6 weeks. Doctors told me it's not a precise thing at that stage. So don't give it too much thought

I also bled at 7 and 9 weeks! I now have a 10 month old

Good luck this afternoon x

Wishing you luck for today OP

Thank you so much. My Scan is in just over an hour and holding out every last ounce of hope. I’ve had such a nervous tummy all day. Will pluck up some bravery to update.

After my MMC in April I’m so scared to even walk into the room x

Thinking of you.

Good luck! I hope all is well and it can be a weight off your mind x

@Catchafallingstar15 sending all the positive vibes I can. It's so hard to be positive after a mc. Thinking of you.