Need a bit of encouragement!

[Randomname85]

I’m 40+2 with my second baby - I had a sweep two days ago which was apparently ‘successful’ according to the midwife but I wish I’d asked more questions as I can’t understand her notes in my book 🥴

For the rest of the day I was spotting and had cramps, the next day I lost my plug and I was awake ALL last night convinced I was going into labour - my hips back and thighs were on fire and I felt the occasional BH. Since i got up this morning everything is back to normal except I feel a totally emotional wreck, I don’t even want to be with my husband or little girl 😓 just want to be holed up in a room on my own.

I never felt this impatient with my first and she was 10 days late, I guess this time I’m reading too much into the signs and expecting something to happen imminently - just feel sick of having no energy to even play with my daughter. I guess I also feel a bit nervous about the actual labour this time as well as my first was quite traumatic (forceps and lots of blood loss).

Any words of wisdom? Do the very early signs all sound like they’re there?

Aw... The emotional toll of dealing with coming to labour along with your last experience, your hormones, physical journey you just went through having to go intohospital to get things moving- it is totally understandable that you feel this way.

As I am still waiting for my first to arrive in 2 month, I do not have knowledge on correct early signs, they all vary.
But I do want to remind you that not all births are the same, I am sure this one will be better, so when those memories creep in, wash them away and visualise how you would like it to go this way.
If you feel as though things are back to 'normal'.. they havent you have definitely moved along.
Do relax and allow your body to do what is made to do, your body is built to figure it out. All you can do is mentally and emotionally regroup - use this time to relax, do not feel guilty about not being able to play with your daughter or wanting to be alone to focus. You will be back to normal soon. This is a time for you and your body to work it out and I am sure your husband will understand, if you need him away and will jump back to your side when you need him back.
When you grow anxious - remember there is not a set time, and you will just go on this journey as it comes. And remember to call the midwives when you have questions. Good luck I am sure you'll be there soon.