Vent/ tips required please. I'm 33 weeks pregnant. When I was 29 weeks work messaged us all to say they were bringing vulnerable people back but with a few weeks notice. myself and other ladies in 3rd trimester said we understood we were supposed to be shielding/avoiding to go in the office because we were over 28 weeks. They then phoned us up about a week later to say good news you dont have to come back if you're over 28 weeks, I'd still be paid until maternity starts in september. I had a phone call today at 4.30 to say they've now decided it is safe and to come in next week! Cue absolute panic as I had to panic sort out childcare for my son and stuff.
I'm now freaking out as people at work have been saying they're not social distancing 2m because the desks are back to back (it's a call centre, air con etc), people are sharing desks because theres not enough etc.
Am I wrong to feel worried when theres all this info in the news about rising cases and a 2nd wave, and being so damn close to maternity leave?! I feel like I'll need to wear a mask as extra precaution but that not going to be fun when I hyperventilate.
I have a history of depression and anxiety and so far been ok medication free, midwives been keeping an eye etc. But recently I've had god awful insomnia. Since the call ive had 2 panic attacks, I'm freaking out. I know I'll have panic attacks when I go back to work which I can deal with. I feel sick thinking about it.
The problem is I cant go on sick because I'm on an attendance warning due to time off I had for fibromyalgia. I don want to start my maternity too early because it will affect when i go back to work next year and childcare plans. I'm getting so stressed out thinking about well what if i start to have contractions at work, I have to drive myself there and back, can I drive if anything starts?! I'm not due to see midwife again until the 18th x