Need to vent :(

[Natasha9511]

Need to vent

Just been told I’ve got ICP/OC and I’m being induced on Friday at 39+2. I’m really annoyed because my birth plan has gone out the window and I also have PTSD from a medically induced miscarriage a few years ago, had pessaries inserted and was in a room all day which is literally how this is going to go. I’m really annoyed and scared and feel like I’ve failed myself and my baby. I know I haven’t, I don’t know why I think like that but I just do...

My partner (and dad to be) is being a total arse. Came in from work and complained about the mess on the hallway upstairs. It’s not ‘mess’ I was in town yesterday visiting my parents and they gave me some bags of nappies, toiletries etc stuff for the baby. I didn’t get home until late so it went from sitting in the kitchen to in the hallway while I deep cleaned our kitchen. I hate that I now have a time limit on everything being done and there’s no spontaneity to when I’ll go into labour. I’m on the verge of tears because I feel under pressure and he’s now also moaning because I don’t have the settlement figure for the car finance yet as we are trading our car in. I just wish he would sort that himself, I’m heavily pregnant and itching like a nutter. I’m trying to sort our house which we’ve just bought and renovated so still finding homes for things, I’m knackered because I don’t sleep with the itching and now I feel like I’ve failed my child. URGH help me

Aww. Poor you
You should tell your partner he us being an arse! Is he having his own or birth wobble or is he usually like this?
You have not failed your child though! You are running around like a nutter because you want to be the best mummy you can!
Be kind to yourself. Did what you need to do and ignore the rest.
Good luck with the birth x

Your partner is being a bit of a dick if you ask me! However I agree with pp. he might be super anxious about the whole birth and just starting to pick at silly things.
I do this quite a bit in all honesty! 😳
You haven't failed your baby! You've done amazing to get to where you are and I can't imagine how your PTSD is, but try not to compare the two situations, as they are far from the same.
You're going to be bringing your baby into the world instead of saying goodbye like the first time.
You're going to be a Momma. Just focus on that and try and look forward to welcoming your little bundle into your arms.
I wish you all the best 💐💐💐