Rant about my body playing tricks on me

[Gallacia]

I can't conceive with my husband naturally. His sperm don't swim effectively and if they do, the sperm are "sticky" so they don't fertilise.

We had lots of ivf to conceive our baby, were so lucky.

We aren't TTC, we spent years doing that already and went through the heartbreak of my AF arriving each month.

Now AF is late, I'm having early pregnancy symptoms. It's my body playing tricks on me, I just think it's cruel. I'm still in the mentality of "maybe this is it.." but I know it isn't.

I'm lucky to have one child, I know that. Just feeling pretty shitty that AF isn't here and I feel pregnant when I can't face a test because I know for sure what the answer will be, I spent 8 years seeing that answer.

In a similar boat here. We have 1 little boy miracle conception but nothing for nearly 5 years since apart from 3 miscarriages in the last year all IVF and lots of debts!!

My last miscarriage was in April and I’ve had a faint line on an internet cheapie yesterday and a negative result on a clear blue this morning. Complete head wreck. I’m not late like you yet though.

We also have male factor and although we were lucky to conceive naturally once, I very much doubt it can happen again but the money has ran out for any more treatments. Shit isn’t it!! X

@Mctm123 thanks so much for the reply! I would absolutely love to of conceived naturally, I'm so grateful for my DS but my periods never late and I'm 3 days late (I realise this isn't worryingly late) but I feel like it's cruel

I can't face testing because if I see another negative it brings back the years of trying and feeling like a failure.

DH joker "well my fishes work, they just don't seem to move much, maybe one got lucky" and I asked him not to say anything, makes me get my hopes up.

Had a few pains today so guessing AF will be arriving tomorrow, just a giant rant. Also everyone around me is having babies so that doesn't help haha

@Gallacia honestly I can totally relate. I’ve woke up this morning feeling like it’s one of them down days. How are you? Did af arrive? X

Hey, nope I'm 5 days late but been having cramps since last night so guessing AF will make an appearance today xx

You have a lot of willpower! I would have done a test by now but totally understand where your coming from x

Omg! First test!!!!!

Oh my god!!! Congratulations wow!!!! 🥳🥳🥳 I’m so happy for you!!! Xx

Congratulations @Gallacia. Miracles do happen! X

Thanks everyone, tested again and got 1-2 woo! I know it's early days, I'm cramping but I had these cramps with my first successful cycle so I'm hoping it's all going to be okay.

I'm in shock, DH almost fainted. We have an 8mo old so this definetly wasn't planned but so, very very happy

Maybe infertility isn’t the most sensitive place for this thread?

Congratulations on your surprise pregnancy that you weren’t trying for eight months after having had a baby.

@PurpleDaisies if you read my original post, you'll see that we have a male factor infertility and it took me 2 rounds of ivf to conceive my son, please feel free to ask MumsnetHQ to move the thread to somewhere more suitable.

I meant no offence within this post xxx

I love your post gives me hope that we might also fall pregnant naturally congratulations xxx

Congrats!

Thanks everyone xxx

Wow!! How amazing!! Congratulations xx

Wow! I don't even know you but I'm so incredibly happy for you. Congratulations

That’s great news OP, congratulations!

Congratulations! Wonderful news!

Thank you so, so much. I'm still in disbelief. This is the most amazing thing that could ever happen

congratulations @Gallacia miracles really do happen

This thread makes me so happy... congratulations OP!
Not sure why @purpledaisies needs to be so sarcastic... as my granny used to say "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all..."
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