I feel so alone

[Chicken123]

So I’m just over 4 weeks pregnant..and to say I’ve been suffering with nausea and insomnia already is an understatement. I feel more than crap all day and all night. I’m literally sleeping for 2/3 hours max and waking up around 2-4am every morning!

We’ve both told our parents about the pregnancy but are keeping it to ourselves from everyone else until 12 weeks.

I’m glad we told our parents because I can message my mum etc but keeping this a secret is so hard especially when I feel like I do and still have to go to work and care/support the vulnerable and just want all the reassurance and support I can get.

Also, when I’m not feeling well I like to be left alone and not engage in loads of conversation or be smothered etc and I don’t want my OH to feel like I’m being distant. I just can’t think of anything worse than being cuddled when you feel like you could be sick everywhere.

I just feel like this is so hard, so early on and will it get better soon!

😥

Hey hun, thought I'd reply. This was me at 4 weeks, then lockdown happened and I just couldnt shake the loneliness feeling. Being a ftm as well DP didnt know what to do.

He said I slept all the time, but that was the only way I could feel better, and tonnes of plain toast!

Try not to be too hard in yourself, first trimester is the worst. Eat what you need to get you through.

Everyone said that I'd feel better by second trimester and I did very slowly by about 16 weeks.

I'm 21 weeks now and feeling much better, what I found was that the sickness eased but I'm still tired, but I can get over that.

It's not easy, especially in lockdown but when you can start to tell people you'll get tonnes of support and mn is a godsend!

Thank you so much for your reply @Indigogirl88

I’m so glad I’m not the only one and I know most women get the nausea and sickness etc, but I think until it’s experienced, you have no idea what to expect.

My OH is being so supportive, he even slept on the sofa last night so I could have the whole bed to get comfy because of struggling to sleep (I did eventually).

I wouldn’t mind the tiredness because I’m tired a lot of the time anyway (pre-pregnancy), it’s just this bloody nausea. I feel hungover 24/7.

I just can’t wait for the day it starts getting better so I can really enjoy this experience.

MN really is a godsend x

Yep the hangover feeling is exactly how I felt, carbs and cheese got me through, probably why I put 10 pounds on in my first trimester ooops! It doesn't help being hot either, I need a fan! X