When my first arrived, I was adamant I wasn't going to have a second due to PND and I convinced myself my DS has a disability - I believe this was also caused by my PND to be honest. It happened very fast, so the real aching for a child never happened. I know a lot of women here cannot get pregnant and my prayers are with you because this must be so hard, I can't even imagine.
Now my heart aches for a second but I even really want twins. I don't even think this is rational but completely emotional. DH & DHs dad is a twin. Not actual reason to post, just that I find it really hard thinking, the time is not right. Just feeling sorry for myself. Be kind, I know mumsnet can be brutal.