They upset me. I work near one of the ultrasound scan places. It is a shop front, not a tucked away office or a medical establishment, the windows and signs are plastered in scan photos and pictures of happy smiling (heterosexual, white) couples. Slogans like meet your baby, etc. It’s bloody upsetting. I’m no snowflake honestly, babies don’t upset me in the least, nor do scan pictures from my nearest and dearest, I’m level headed in all baby related matters. But I’ve had more bad scans than good scans. Really bad ones. Bloody traumatic scans. Medical processes, in hospitals, with serious repercussions for me, for my babies.
No, I wasn’t happy with just two NHS scans, I wasn’t happy with any number of scans. Firstly, it’s a really good thing if you ‘only’ need two scans. If you want a scan for reassurance your baby’s heart is beating, I understand that, having spent countless months pregnant in perpetual states of anxiety mixed in with terror. But it only tells you the heart is beating right now. Not today, not tomorrow, not the next day and not any one of the long weeks ahead. I know all too well that can change and so do many others.
The thing that bothers me about the shop, these scans, the thing that makes me walk the long way round, the thing that makes me need to do controlled breathing exercises to pass by it (ones I am having to do now) is the presumption. The presumption that you can just peek in and everything will be fine and everything will continue to be fine. I have the same reaction to “gender” (sex) scans. I hope it is fine. I hope it is fine for everyone. But these shops are just preying on insecurities and on the bereaved, glossing over the serious reasons for scanning and the very real chance of bad news - at 10,20,30 or 40 weeks.i can understand this naivety in parents to be. But the scan places themselves cannot possibly be so naive. They must deliver bad news daily. How can they do that, and charge for it, surround these parents with shiny images of “perfect” families, and just pack them off to the NHS to piece back together?