First baby and scared

[xkjl1x]

Currently 15 weeks today. Im stuck in isolation away from my partner and done nothing but worry.
I had my scan two weeks ago which wasn't the best experience if I'm honest. Heartbeat was good but as the midwife said because I'm little fat the picture not clear. ( just want the world to pull u in moment). Not that I list 4 stone to get pregnant or anything.
The whole thing made me not want to go to my next one. I must be only women to leave the hospital crying her heart out. Not with excitement.

From then I googled everything because right now I don't feel pregnant. Apart from the odd tummy ache feeling alittle sick. More I read more worried I get.
Not met my midwife yet and she now she change my appointment another 3 weeks. I asked her what should I do if I have questions she told me to uses nhs website around and around we go.
My partner just keeps telling me everything will be fine but that easy for him to say.

With everything going on at the moment I starting to feel like i have made the wrong decision.
I feel lonely I carnt even bring myself to tell my family.

[Williams3001]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way and had a bad experience at the scan. Sometimes you can get an unsympathetic or busy sonographer; you won't necessarily have the same person next time. Do you have the number for the midwife unit? If you're worried about something specific you could call them and see if you can talk to a different midwife. And if you really don't get on with your one, you can ask to change.

I didn't have many symptoms either, so I know how worrying it can be, but it is very common – you're not alone, I promise! Some people wait until the 20-week scan (also called an anomaly scan) before telling friends and family, because you have a better idea of what's going on with baby by that point, so try not to feel pressured to tell them if you don't want to.

[xkjl1x]

Thank you. Its not that I don't get on with my midwife because I only just spoken to her. Only met the ones at the hospital.
I know im overthinking things and I try not to it just hard.
Hopefully it be better in 5 weeks when I go for 20 week scan im just feeling really scared about going back.

[Phiphi123]

I didn’t get a clear scan at 12 weeks either and sonographer told me off for not having a full enough bladder (even though I was dying for a wee throughout) and wrote in my notes it was also because of me being overweight which was a bit annoying as I don’t feel like I am. I am having a private scan on Thursday and midwife said this was absolutely the right thing to do if it will make me feel reassured or less worried, would you consider booking in for a private wellbeing scan? If you are lucky they can also tell you the sex from 16 weeks and that will be something exciting to focus on most private scan places have close links with maternity outpatient services so it might really help you feel less worried and overwhelmed if you can be shown that all is ok. Xx

[xkjl1x]

I have looked at going and getting a private scan think it going to be the way forward.
I really don't know what els to do.
If I'm like this at 15 weeks God help me when baby here