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IM LOSING MY MIND

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Franny0696 · 15/05/2020 21:10

Been in lockdown since 17th of March due to my employer advising me to stay at home for 12 weeks and the situation will get reviewed then. I am 23 weeks pregnant, married and I generally at my last tether with everything.
I haven't seen anyone apart from my mum who I speak to from across the garden 3 times a week to try and maintain my sanity. My husband has just started going back to work which is good, as he hasn't had NO income within the last couple of weeks due to no work (he owns his own business) I'm on furlough so my money is crap atm. BUT I FEEL FUCKING SHIT AND LONELY. He works quite early to quite late and I generally feel like shit, I am on my own all day every day. Some nights he gets in late so I hardly see him. I cook dinner, walk the dog, I do everything, my back is starting to get really sore and I feel like I have 0 support. I talk to him about how I feel and that I feel like shit and he don't seem fussed. BUT no if it was the other way round he would expect the world to be dropped.

Then to top it off his fucking mother is doing my fucking head in!!! She hasn't ONCE checked in with me to check how I am in regards to the baby - she knows my husband hasn't had ANY income the past couple of weeks and because my husband owed her money (she works full time and so does his dad they have money) she was ringing EVERYDAY asking why it hadn't been sent!! It's was £85! I'm livid I'm so angry she didn't give us fuck all for our wedding because she helped him get a loan under her name which HE IS PAYING BACK but she uses that excuse as to why she didn't put any money in toward the wedding. And now she's on his case and don't give a shit.

EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE IS FUCKING ME OFF

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lockdownpregnancy · 15/05/2020 22:45

Oh dear OP, you sound like you're having a great time of it all! 😬
I feel very similar. I'm nearly 21 weeks and 9 weeks into being at home. I'm also on furlough and DH has been home with me for 7 weeks and now I can't wait for him to go back to work! He's doing my nut in! Nothing vile, but I can't even talk to people at a distance face to face. He's so fucking paranoid it's insane! We need paint for the nursery but he is saying we shouldn't be going out and buying anything. Whilst he has a point I want the nursery done whilst I'm still able to paint and not too massive that I have to leave it to him as he is shit at painting!
Anyway that my rant and I could go on, but you're really not on your own with how you feel!
It's fucking awful right now! I literally feel like a prisoner in my own home! Even though I walk the dog every day, I feel totally lost!
You've done the right thing by having a rant and getting it off your chest! You have every right to!
This forum is the best place for it, as no one knows you and you can just let rip!
I was desperate for DH to go back to work next week so I can actually go to Sainsbury's or B&aw for paint, but he isn't going back until June now!! 😫😫😫😫
Keep ranting, eat or do something that makes you feel better, breath and try and reboot!
Here's hoping it's not forever, otherwise I think we will all end up The Priory! 😂

lockdownpregnancy · 15/05/2020 22:47

B&Q*

New2020 · 15/05/2020 22:52

Paranoid husband!!! Can relate to that!! Mine thinks it's not even safe talking to my family from across the driveway and gets pissed off if they come to see me saying they shouldn't. I miss them so much and they want to see me...if we keep our distance I don't see the problem. I miss my mum's cooking and my sister has offered to drop me some food given I've had really bad morning sickness..but he disapproves of this too. ALSO GOING MAD AT HOME

Franny0696 · 15/05/2020 23:12

Generally don't know how much longer I can take it! I'm jealous he gets to go to work!!

Feel selfish I am saying that due to all the lowly dying etc but I just am sick of this shit lol

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lockdownpregnancy · 16/05/2020 12:51

I actually went to Sainsbury's today! FREEDOM!!!!!!
First time in 9 weeks I've been anywhere other than the GP or hospital (although I can count on one hand how many times that's been!)
I actually got to browse the baby clothes and when I got home I burst into tears! DH asked me what was wrong and I just said even though it's just Sainsbury's, it just felt amazing! Mentally it's done me the world of good!
I wore a mask and some gloves and then scrubbed my hands like I was about to perform surgery when I got home, but a small price to pay!
I was going to go to B&Q too for some paint samples for the nursery too, but I didn't want to push it! 😂
Baby steps with DH! Maybe next week! 😝
I had a letter from work yesterday about their plans to slowly bring the furloughed staff back to work over the next 2-4 weeks, so I'm just praying that by June, I'll be working again! I can but hope! 🙏🏻
Hope you're all doing ok today!

Franny0696 · 16/05/2020 13:59

@lockdownpregnancy awwww good for you! So nice to get out and do something. I cannot even speak to my DH at the minute I'm literally in the worst mood. Maybe him being at work will do me some good!

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Prettylittlelady · 16/05/2020 14:32

Unless you have some other medical condition - which you may do. You are allowed out! You can go for walks, with your Mum now or even to the supermarket if you really wanted to. Don’t drive yourself insane at home when you are allowed out for exercise and essential trips just like everyone else. I’m 18 weeks and I have been walking regularly, with my Mum today and it was lovely.

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