It's just hit me like a ton of bricks

[Waow]

I'm a FTM to be, due in 5 weeks and it's just hit me tonight that my whole life is about to change and I'm going to be responsible for keeping a little person alive 😳 obviously I've known the deal all along and this doesn't come as a surprise but for some reason, about an hour ago, it just hit me that I don't have long left until my world gets flipped upside down. I feel totally overwhelmed, anxious and just want to cry (I'm not generally an overly emotional person).

DH doesn't understand why I'm so worked up and to be honest, neither do I. I think it's the thought of bringing this little person home and not having a clue what to do with him. I can see myself being scared to take my eyes off him - just in case). I'm an anxious person at the best of times but have been really good throughout my pregnancy... until now. I'd imagined spending lots of time with my mum when baby arrives but that might not be possible due to the pandemic and that makes me really sad.

I know it's probably my hormones causing me to feel this way and logically, I know everything will be ok but this wave of fear and panic has thrown me! Has anyone else had a wobble/meltdown/freak out in the weeks leading up to having your first baby?

I'm only 19 weeks and filled with a mixture of excitement and pure fear!
I think it's normal to feel how you are, as like you said, you're about to be responsible for a baby! Who wouldn't be freaked out by that!!!
As exciting as this journey is, it's also truly terrifying for me personally, as it was never in mine & DH's plans until recently (hence why I am now pregnant 😝).
If you get super anxious then see if you can speak to your midwife, but if you feel like you want to cry, just cry! Get it out. Have a good sob and then watch a nice Disney movie to cheer you up! 😁

Yes of course and I felt this after baby was born for a little while so brace yourself for that aswell lots of feelings of 'what have I done' 'how do so many people do this' 'this is so hard'
But... They are completely normal feelings!! For lots of different reasons.. hormones, emotions, exhaustion and the list goes on..
Just keep vocalising how you are feeling to people around you so they can help you the best they can, things can get real and a bit scary at times but oh my gosh it gets easier as each day goes by and it's so worth it, enjoy it x

@Waow same here. 34 weeks and suddenly lost my mind wondering how much life will change. Also thought my mum and mother in law would be able to pop over but not sure now...

I figure we will just find a way through, everyone seems to? Just got to take it day y day?

Don’t panic, OP. Even if you — like me — turn out to loathe the baby stage, you get absolutely all your life back, eventually, plus you have the extra fun of a person you made growing up around you.

OP, I felt like this before DS was born - i was horribly anxious and worried I'd ruined mine and my husband's lives. Now I can’t imagine life without my boy. Sure, it’ll never be the same as it was before, but it's so much better having him in my life. He’s 18 weeks now and while I have some bad days with him, I’d not change things for the world.

Hope you have a peaceful rest of pregnancy and an amazing rest of life!

I'm having my second tomorrow and I feel the same, it's normal don't worry. It's amazing how much you adapt once baby is here and even if you are just winging it things fall in to place.
Don't let the pandemic worry you, things are changing all the time.
You will be amazed how quickly your mum instincts kick in!
Good luck OP. Like others have said, have a good cry, let it all out and enjoy what's left of your pregnancy. X

Yep! And I totally agree that the feelings of ‘what have I done’ once they’re here is real and very normal.
It’s cheesy but she’s almost 2 now and having her is the best thing I’ve done.
Expecting number 2 later this year and fully prepared to feel it again.

My baby is 2 months old, it's a whirlwind, but I am excited for you and almost jealous that you are just at the start of it!!

It is scary but it is so exciting. Best advice is to not rely on anyone except yourselves and trust your own instincts. Babies don't need much at first, warm clothes, nappies and some milk. You'll be fine I was the least maternal person ever and iv survived 10 months in lol.

Thank you so much everyone, I really appreciate you taking the time to reply and your kind words! I've had a word with myself and am feel a bit better (for now). I'm sure the next few weeks/months are going to be filled with moments like these but I'll get through it. Glad to hear that those of you who have already had your babies are all now enjoying mum life ❤️

@strawberry2017 all the best for tomorrow! Exciting times x

Totally normal!

Ross in friends ": I always knew I was havin' a baby, I just never realized the baby was having me."

Was me at 30 weeks! And I was a nanny before becoming a mother!

Spoke to my mum and was like "I hadn't yet equated being pregnant with having an actual baby I'm an idiot!"

She laughed and said totally normal especially with first one. She thinks it's an evolutionary coping mechanism as while pregnant you need to be quite selfish and take care of yourself in order to protect the pregnancy but near the end you need to prepare.

You'll be fine.