Hey!
Looking for some reassurance that perhaps my hormones are causing emotions indent normally display!
Found out I was expecting on Wednesday. Had a ectopic back in Jan that resolved itself thankfully.
Anyway, in just these 4 days I've been on a wild, wild rollercoaster 😂. I'm nauseous and vomiting, but secretly I'm enjoying this (that will only last so long haha) as I never had it with my ectopic preg so I'm taking this as a positive sign it's in the right place and producing lots of HCG.
But last night and today I have been soooooo weepy! It all started when my OH tried to get me to take a different route home from the shop, and I felt sick and needed to eat something quick from the shopping bags and he didnt get it quick enough and then he told me hes had enough.
Then we had a little fall out and I spent the entire night crying while he was downstairs pissed up. Today, I'm trying to watch a series on netflix and every sad scene or sad music is setting me off! I have to be careful what I think about incase it sets me off.
This is completely unlike me. My partner usually teases that I have no emotions.
When I read about other ladies and how their emotions have hit them, they all seem to be finding the funny side (afterwards) about what upset them and it becomes quite humourous... I feel like that's not me. I'm not crying over silly things which are actually quite funny...
I'm worried that I might be taking a downward spiral rather than just pregnancy weepiness from hormones. I'm starting to doubt if me and OH should be together and I'm worrying that I'm going to have another ectopic or MC. Im starting to worry about every possible scenario that could happen.
We've got problems but we've been together 4.5 years and both have our own careers and a good foundation... but we have our moments far too often when we think, right that's it! I'm done! And then we make up.
I dont really know what my question from this post is but it already feels a little better getting it off my chest and ranting. But I guess I'm wondering if this is "normal"? Are the extra hormones just amplifying the emotions and worries/anxieties that I already have buried deep?
For anyone reading this, thank you for reading my rant. If anyone has any advice it will be gratefully received!