I’m just feeling so overwhelmed by it all, I had awful morning sickness until 20 weeks, was hospitalised at 22 weeks and at 25 weeks admitted with pre-term labour. The hospital’s maternity part is awful, I’m high risk and have been self isolating and was placed in a bay with a woman coughing and talking all night on her phone despite the midwives telling her to keep it down and then another woman who was violent. I have met some of the worst midwives who argue with each other and drs in front of me, had awful comments made by them about how I should have stayed at home and now I am at home I feel awful. I can’t sleep, stand up or sit up for more than 10 minutes without pain and just feel so useless. The pain relief they gave me I react too so I hate taking it. I have another 11 weeks to go and the idea of being in pain all day every day makes me cry. I’m sorry if this is just a moany thread but I just feel so guilty. I can’t FaceTime my friends due to pain, I can’t read or concentrate on anything and I’m being the worst partner by just crying all the time. I’m meant to be working from home but I’m overwhelmed by how far behind I am. I just want to be myself again, not exhausted by just having a shower, not having to decide between getting out of bed to eat or sit in the garden. I have wanted this baby for so long and I feel very lucky to have them but I can’t actually visualise them being here. I’m so worried that my mental health is being affected and this will continue afterwards and I have no outside support. The gps and midwives are overwhelmed in the community, our Nct classes have been cancelled and this wasn’t how my pregnancy was meant to be. I may never return to my much loved job and I miss my friends and family who live hours away. Please can somebody tell me how to start feeling better.