Pregnancy feels like torture

[Pregnantbam]

Hi all,

I think I just need a rant because I’m so done with pregnancy. I’m currently 36 weeks but could have easily given up at 17 weeks (by that I don’t mean termination, I just mean curling up in a ball and not bothering with any form of normality anymore).

I know I should be grateful for our baby, I have PCOS and was a bit unsure if this would even be viable but my god, I feel like I’ve done something wrong in a past life as the last 9 months have been so bad.

From the HG that started at 8 weeks, the insomnia, the constant pain, I can’t move, walk, breathe or really do anything and haven’t been able to do so for months. I’m not even that large (thanks to the contact sickness) so I just sit around, exhausted and feeling horrific just wanting the days to pass by. I know I ‘haven’t got long to go’ but somehow the third trimester has really dragged and I can’t even begin to think how I’ll get to full term. I honestly feel like I have nothing left to give and that everyday is just a slow and torturous way to end a really difficult pregnancy. I just recovered from COVID and I thought at least I was able to recover from that in time for birth but I just want labour to happen now (which I know I shouldn’t wish for at 36 weeks).

Sorry to be so negative, I just want to cry all the time.

Sorry you've had such a rough ride, but you really are nearing the end now. Just take it easy as best you can and try not to symptom spot. Are you still working or are you now on mat leave? If you can still do some work (or other things that won't get done once baby arrives) then now is the time to do them just to give yourself something to do.

Baby is classed as full term from 37 weeks and if it came now, it really wouldn't be the end of the world. My baby came at 36 weeks and we were discharged as normal with no extra monitoring etc. He just had more fur type hair on his body as they don't shed it until 37/38 weeks, apparently.