So I had a Miscarriage (MMC) back in December last year that started with brown spotting and after going for the scan at 11/12 weeks I was informed it hadn't really grown past the 6 week mark. So I ended up having to have a D and C as it wouldnt occur naturally.
Then we got pregnant again in January and I've had on/off spotting and bleeding weeks 5/6/7 brown and sometimes bright red. I've had scans at 6 and 9 weeks that have measured well and I've seen the heartbeat on both. I felt that all was well until yesterday I had some weird orange spotting that turned bright red (but only like a single spot when I wipe) then has gone back to orangey/pink today. The other weird thing I found was clumps of orange discharge inside me..... I have had thrush last week and took the pessary a week ago. I've had a fair amount of cramping and pulling pains today and last night. But nothing like when I miscarried last time.
Luckily the hospital will scan me tomorrow but I'm petrified. I want this baby so badly and I just feel so negative that it's not going to happen. It doesn't help that so many of my friends and family are posting pics of their 3 month scans on Facebook. It feels like everyone is pregnant and I'm here jealous and bitter (and feel horrible feeling like that).