Having a rough time with my pregnancy. I'm 26 weeks and everything health wise is fine, not had any bad symptoms and it's a breeze so far... except for my head. The past week with everything going on my thoughts have turned sour. I can't help thinking that I don't want to be a mum, I'm scared I won't be able to deal with the crying and tiredness, I'm worried my husband won't deal with it well either and I'll have to deal with a baby and a grumpy husband. I'm worried about the state of everything by July too. Will we be back to normal? Will my family be able to visit my newborn? I'm also worried that I'll have to have a c-section (low lying placenta) and that I won't be able to get any help because my mum won't be able to stay for a week as planned (my side of the family live 3 hours away btw).
I can't even bring myself to look at buying baby things anymore cos it really effects my mood and I don't like thinking about my life with a baby.
Just to add, this baby wasn't planned but I did want a baby very badly before getting pregnant. I did also suffer with depression before pregnancy which was medicated until I found out about the baby.
Feel like an awful person.