Metztli
i am now 8 weeks 2 days pregnant. As you read I refused medical advice 2 times and relied strictly on what little faith i had and my motherly instincts to keep strong and hold on. I ended up going to the ER after a while where i was told once again i would need a d&c but this time because it was a blighted ovum (empty sac) and not an ectopic pregnancy. They offered for me to stay the night at the ER and that they would find someone to come in and do the procedure. I said i would have to think about it and that if i felt bad in any way i would return. I got my discharge papers pretty quick but not before the doctor said i was being irresponsible and not making the right choice. So it had been almost a week. It was time for me to accept what i was being told and find a way to say good bye. It was very hard i had family and my significant other telling me it just wasn't meant to be and at least it wasn't a real baby. I know it was all in an effort to make me feel better about the situation but i just couldn't accept it. I finally got the courage to make am appointment with my original doctor. At this point i was physically very unwell, mostly cause if all the stress i was causing myself, so i was willing to accept the procedure. Once in the doctors office i was sort of treated oddly because i had refused medical advice. The nurse asked me why why i had refused procedure and all i could say is "i don't know why maybe i still have a little hope that he's in there i guess im just crazy" she laughed, nodded and left the room. Next thing i know im getting a vaginal ultrasound when lo and behold she turned the screen and said 'there he is, he's right their.' There was my baby. Now im in disbelief and have no idea what to do now. Im honestly exhausted from the whole situation and have no energy. Im happy the way things are turning out and am just praying desperately to get the strength i need to be a good mom and be strong.