Hi, I’m almost 30 weeks and I have requested a c section this time for various reasons. I saw my midwife last week who said that while birth options hadn’t changed YET she couldn’t say whether they would by the time im due and that I need to play it by ear and be as flexible as possible. I’ve had four vaginal births with no big complications but am absolutely terrified of doing so this time. I can’t explain it really. I’ve had severe MH issues that were being dealt with before the pregnancy but since finding out about this one (very very unexpected and a huge shock) things went south quickly and I got so much worse.
I’ve been on medication and having counselling which is all helping and I’m in a much better place, but having the option of a section gave me a sense of control and stability that I don’t have anymore due to everything that’s going on now and the uncertainty around giving birth.
My appt with the consultant to talk about this was on Monday but has been cancelled and I’ve got a telephone appt instead. The change has made me more apprehensive and I’m struggling a bit with all the fluctuations. I know it’s not an easy time for anyone expecting at the moment though so maybe it’s all just ‘normal’ worry as opposed to my MH issues flaring up again, or maybe a it’s a bit of both.
I suppose what I’m asking is if youre still on track for your birth plan or if you’ve given birth recently were your options and care the same as before this kicked off? Have you had any info or advice from your midwife about an upcoming birth? I know it’s noones fault but the lack of clarity has unsettled me massively.