Hello all,
Just looking for some advice i guess. This is my first pregnancy and I was not trying for a baby, I am 26 and I live at home with my mum and my boyfriend. However, my boyfriend is really happy about it and I have always wanted to be a mum, so we figure it is a blessing and we love the baby already. I found out 4 days ago and I am around 5 weeks.
Firstly, my boyfriend is self employed electrician and already has no work or income due COVID-19. I earn a decent wage and am currently working from home and I think I can save myself around 1000 a month so we can move out ASAP, hopefully he will start work again in a few weeks / be entitled to some benefit so any additional we will save too. But I am worried enough that I havnt even told my mum, who I am close to, because I dont want her judgement or worries in the current uncertainty. My boyfriend told his mum and she told me to get an abortion, which hurt.
Secondly I have just had a call from my boss and they are having to make 60% of staff redundant. He told me I am safe which I am incredibly happy about. I have a feeling it could have an impact on my wage.. but I dont know as of yet. Anyway, they are fair and would never take advantage of me. I am the only person in my company who does my role. I just feel terribly guilty that I am pregnant and know I will have to go on maternity leave in 7/8 months. The thought of telling them terrifies me. However, I will go back quite soon as I earn more than my O/H and if work need me I guess they need me. I dont know, should I feel guilty?
I am worried as I really want this baby now and I am terrified of everything and upsetting everyone with the news, and it is ruining it for me. I hate COVID-19!!!