19 weeks feeling anxious & helpless, is anyone feeling the same?

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I know probably everyone is feeling the same way right now.

I’m 19 weeks and I’m so so lucky that amidst all the chaos I’m able to work from home full time, however my partner is self employed as a tattoo artist so he’s up close to people all day every day.

If he didn’t work we would be screwed, my pay doesn’t cover all of the bills (about £100 short) but at the same time I just want him home and safe and I’m so worried he’ll catch it and pass it to me.

My work is getting quieter and quieter and people in my department have been moved to other roles and I’m scared I may lose my income if we have to close. I don’t know how my maternity pay will be affected if we close in the next few weeks.

I’ve got my 20 week scan next Thursday and have been reading a lot that partners are not allowed to come now. I have an anxiety disorder as it is, but after having a small bleed a few weeks back feel like I could do with his support. It can’t be helped and I know it’s for the best but I can’t help but be filled with dread.

My mum, dad, and brother all are either in the high risk category due to age or health issues and I just feel so worried about everything. I saw a man a few weeks back pack an entire trolley full of baby formula and spent £600+ at the till, he must have cleared the shelves. I can’t imagine how stressful it must be for mums at the moment struggling to feed their babies.

I’m finding it really hard to be excited about my pregnancy anymore as I’m so consumed with worry. I’m scared that if this goes on until I’m due in August, will I be able to buy everything I need for my baby? Luckily my mum bought me my pram and a few bits before mothercare closed down we have some things.

I think the not knowing when this will end is the worst thing. I’m really struggling with ways to stay positive.

Maybe we can share some positive ideas and thoughts and try help each other feel better!

I could of written this myself. I'm able to work from home but my partner works in utilities so has to work. Although I'm trying to be greatful at the minute we both still have employment.
He has a 5 year old that is coming to us tonight for 2 weeks and I have major anxiety he is a carrier of the virus and will spread it to me.
I too am already anxious with this pregnancy due to bleeds and previous losses and not yet feeling the baby move (19 weeks sunday) and would like my partner at my 20 week scan as he reassures me.
I think the main fear at the moment Is the unknown: will I get the virus, will i still have a job, is there enough food to feed me and my family. This mixed with hormones is never going to be a good combination.
As with having things for the baby Amazon is your best friend. I don't plan on buying till 30 weeks anyway (still convinced something will go wrong) but if worst comes to the worst I can by reusable nappies, let it sleep in the bottom draw, hopefully breast feed and while I have heat, it will never be cold.

@Feelthefear01 it’s awful isn’t it, the unknown is definitely the worst. My brains in overdrive thinking of the what ifs and all the things that could go wrong.

A close friend of my partner who has a young baby has just lost his job due to this and it has really hit close to home. I can’t quite believe it’s all happening.

I’m also hoping I’m lucky enough to be able to breastfeed if this is all still happening when I’m due, but fingers toes and everything crossed that it calms down by then.

Sending hugs