A little long, please bare with me.
Last year I had a a missed miscarriage. I was told at twelve weeks that our baby had a heartbeat but was far too small and it would not work out. I had to go back for weekly scans until it was confirmed that the heartbeat had stopped. I am sure I don’t need to tell you how devastating it was. I thought I grieved and processed it well enough. As my due date approached and went though I realised I had suppressed some of my feelings and I ending up sobbing in bosses office (she is lovely).
Today I found out I am again pregnant. I expected to feel happy and/or anxious/terrified. Instead I didn’t know how to feel. Pretty shell shocked I guess.
My husband had a sore throat last night so slept in the spare room just is case (I have Asthma he was been very cautious). He seems to be fine today but is keeping his distance just in case. He is obviously thrilled to bits but I can’t even have a hug!!
Sorry this is long, I am hoping writing it down helps my head unscramble and help me feel not too overwhelmed. If anyone has been through similar and has things that have helped I am all ears. I did a very gentle home yoga session just now which was nice.
xxx