12 week blues - can anyone relate?

[limetolemon]

I'm 12 weeks pregnant and finding it really difficult to feel positive and excited about it. I'm over the worst of my nausea and tiredness now so thought I'd feel a little better now but I'm still feeling really numb and detached. I've been going through a close bereavement too which I'm sure will be having an impact but I'm worried I'm falling into a bit of a depressive state. I'm finding I'm not going out much and not feeling myself, lots of negative thinking about what's to come. I've always managed my mental health well with running as my go to but I'm just too on my arse now to do it, managed half a mile last time so might need to hang up my trainers for a while.

Pregnancy was very much planned and wanted so it's definitely an added downer to be feeling the opposite. Looking for some positive vibes and shared experiences, everyone is so excited for me and I feel like I'm putting on a front

I remember posting something similar at that point in my pregnancy. I was also completely irrational about my DP - I was suspicious of him and felt we should split up (he's wonderful and in my right mind I'd never consider leaving him).
I had no interest in my pregnancy and didn't even tell people as I didn't want to be pregnant anymore and felt I'd never bond.

I spoke with someone on here going through the same and she was having a horrendous time dealing with her emotions and hormones. She was ready to terminate her very much wanted pregnancy because she felt so disconnected.

It will pass but it may be a few more weeks before your hormones settle.
Be wary of what you say on here though as I got some awful abuse thrown my way when I admitted how I felt about my baby. I knew it was all in my head but I was made to feel like my partner was a piece of crap and I should leave him, and I'd be a terrible mother who didn't deserve to be pregnant.