Feeling gross and insecure in pregnancy

[Nonymous1]

Hi girls

I feel ridiculous. I'm 32 weeks pregnant and feeling overly sensitive about my body!
My boyfriend last night didn't want to have sex with me because he'd gone out to his friends engagement party, got really drunk and passed out which really doesn't bother me in itself. I wanted him to go out and have a good time. Today I had to go out with friends so was out the house the whole day. I got home and he said he'd masturbated 4 times. He said it in a cheeky way, not thinking for one second id be affected of course... because usually I wouldn't! But now, all I can think about is the skinny toned women he's probably been thinking about, and now I feel super embarrassed of my own body. The not wanting to have sex and then the excessive masturbation today has just done my head in 🙈 is he bored of sex with me? I can't get into the positions I could before so it's all missionary and now I'm just freaking out that he isn't attracted to me anymore 🤦🏼‍♀️
Is this just my hormones, am I being completely ridiculous?? We've never had any issues with our sex life before.
Help! 🙈
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I think it's incredibly normal to feel this way. I'm nearly 38 weeks and my husband hasn't wanted sex virtually at all throughout this pregnancy. Admittedly neither have I because I have hyperemesis but I still convince myself that its because my husband isn't attracted to me anymore despite him tell me every day how beautiful he thinks I am and how incredibly he's been taking care of me. He also is still very tactile and affectionate but he openly is not interested in sex because he's disturbed by the idea of our baby being right there and it feels wrong to him.
Obviously your circumstances are different to mine, but my point is, I think it's normal for us pregnant women to question everything because we feel so different in ourselves. But I genuinely believe (when I'm being logical and not hormonal) that my husband does genuinely still find me attractive and I'm sure your partner does you too.
Talk to him, let him know you're feeling a bit vulnerable so he knows to show you that he still finds you beautiful because I bet he wouldn't deliberately want to be making you feel this way.