So down and don’t know what to do

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I’m 20+6 with our second and really struggling. My husband was made redundant nearly a year ago and the only job he’s managed to get means that despite the fact I’m now full time our income is less than half what it used to be. We barely cover bills, food and fuel and I’m constantly stressed that we’re going to completely run out. I’m part employed and part freelance so a lot of the time if I don’t work I lose income. I’ve felt ill since the start, I’m absolutely shattered (partly from having three different jobs) and frequently still incredibly nauseous and dizzy. I should be at work but instead I’ve just sat on the stairs and cried for an hour. I just don’t know what to do any more. I even wondered if I could take enough tablets just to make me ill enough to not have to go to work - I’m not going to because I know that would just make things worse but it scares me that I feel like that.

Hey I didn’t want to read and run. I hit rock bottom feeling very depressed the other day and I’m 10 weeks +2 . It was horrible and I was having bad thoughts .
I spoke to my midwife in the end after some advise on here , and they’re going to talk to me at my next appointment next Thursday . But since telling a professional I feel like a weight has been lifted . Have you spoken to anyone ? It’s hard , very hard, especially if you have another child and then stress of money on top. You’re probably over working and burning yourself out . Please take care , do you take any vitamins ? Since taking vitamin D it seems to help me a bit more x